I am struggling with the fact that these emotions are okay. I feel like I am crying too much, but then I remember "Hey Taylor, you're having incredibly scary surgery in 3 days and crying is allowed."
I had full intentions of writing this awesome blog about these fabulous pajamas that my aunt bought me today that will be incredibly useful, how I had a second interview for an awesome job in the midst of this chaos, and how my dog has not left my side because he knows that I am nervous, but I can't!
No song again, but here is my side kick, Presley, making sure I know that I am loved, by sleeping on my feet. He hasn't laid in my bed for more than 5 minutes his entire life and he laid with me for hours today. Try to tell me dogs don't know whats going on... pshhhh.
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Catch everyone tomorrow after my pre-admission testing to tell you all of these things and explain what in the world pre-admission testing entails.
And hey, thanks for sticking through the days where I am too emotional to say anything of substance! You are getting the raw emotions of a 24-year-old on system overload.
Taylor, you are not alone! We love you!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing woman!!! Crying is allowed!!! You are in our daily prayers!!!
ReplyDeleteDon't be too hard on yourself! Girl you have a big job ahead and you will make it! But it is scary - but just like when you are little and afraid of the dark or bugs or whatever - those who love you will help you get past the scary stuff and keep moving forward. You have awesome parents, family and friends to support you - Prayers for peace, courage and warp speed into the future! You are amazing! <3
ReplyDeleteTaylor, what you're experiencing is completely normal. Nerves are part of the drill. As I mentioned to you previously, my 26-year-old daughter had her PBM this past January. She had a whole range of emotions. The anticipation was the worst part. You're doing great. I think it's awesome that you're able to share your feelings, which will allow you to heal emotionally from this whole ordeal. Chin up buttercup, almost there!
ReplyDeletenerves will get ya every time but they calm down and let you do what you have to do hang in there honey and know you are never alone we are all there with you xxoo
ReplyDeleteremember to breathe. very important.
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